It has been a horrific week at work. Major stress, major defense, major offense, every skill in the toolbox is put to use.
So I grab my lunch and eat it at my desk as usually and keep pounding away. I especially love the fact that I work in a windowed concrete bunker so people just wander in off the floor and expect their particular problem addressed right this second. Well I cannot do that, but I have to take the time to gather the information on the problem so I can proceed to work on it later.
I looked up today and saw it was after 12, I usually eat around 11 because of how early I get breakfast. It was a good thing that I wasn't hungry. but on the other hand it is not healthy that I had been running at 120% for 5 hours straight already. It was one of those days where you cannot even gt the potty break in it is so miserable.
So I grab my lunch and eat it at my desk as usually and keep pounding away. I especially love the fact that I work in a windowed concrete bunker so people just wander in off the floor and expect their particular problem addressed right this second. Well I cannot do that, but I have to take the time to gather the information on the problem so I can proceed to work on it later.
So when 1 rolls around and I still haven't manage to eat my salad I said screw this, sat back ate my lunch, cranked the tunes and thought about what was happening. My company doesn't care what stress they put me under, too much work? Well obviously you are not working enough hours. Pay you? Of course not, we already pay you, why should e pay you ore for the 20-30 hours extra we want you to work, it is not like it is our fault, not like we fired half the staff which put you in ths position, no siree.
There are a lot of people out there in my position. The company wants nothing to do with you. I mean, I am not an ass-kisser, I am not "management track". I like computer stuff and I love working on it, managing people has no interest for me, I LIKE WHAT I DO! Well this means I will never get a raise again, since I am at the highest position in my field and the only way to get a raise is to promote. Promote to what? Why management! Ehhh. So they pile more and more work on us, and we live by the mantra: "At least I have a job". Every day I remind myself of that, and that I have two daughters doing braces, and that will probably want to do college and get married. But like I said this is a position most of us are in. It is stressful, extremely stressful.
Well tonight I opened the tailgate of the van and Serafina (picture) had such a look of contentment on her face as she stared out the back of the van. She loves the car! Then she brightens up and is all "smiles" when I start talking to her. Nothing is going to bring her down! Well, maybe a thunderstorm or that damn train!
So tomorrow I am going back in and I am not going to let it bother me, I am going to put a pad on the table and tell people to write their woes down, because I don't have time to dedicate to them. I am going to get the work done in a reasonable fashion and am not going to kill myself. I am going to take lunch, even if I have to schedule an appointment in the calendar so the computer tells me to. I am going to take that lunch and not do anything for anybody but me.
I have "healthyfied" my insides, now it is time to work on my soul, my spirit, my being.
I do not believe I am going to get better with the way I am going right now.
I healed my gut, next I am going to heal my soul, maybe then my physical self will respond enough that I can work on improving it.
It is not just about the diet. It is about emotional state and stress levels too.
Tai Chi... here I come.
Maybe even some meditation or an attempt at it at least with lunch.
We will not recover by diet alone, just like man cannot live on bread alone. Well actually if you live on bread alone you will end up with diabetes and die, so that statement is very accurate.